So, Im in Regina killing time before I am called to set and all I have been doing lately is journalling and thinking about life. Sometimes when I journal, I get this overwhelming feeling and I find that the words on the page are just flowing out of me. I cant really explain it. Im sure a lot of you writer and journal-ers have experienced it before. Anyways, I just wanted to share what I had to say. I think its important too…not quite sure why. Here is it…I’m typing out what I wrote….
“I just had a revelation…I have spent so many years of my life being in fear of being judged and being scared of what people think of me. Why??? I’ve always greatly admired the bold ones that aren’t afraid to stand out and have an opinion. People like …. and …. always mesmerize me because although I don’t agree with their morals and values completely, at least they stand for something instead of fading away into the shadows. They speak their mind, say controversial things and more than anything HAVE AN OPINION.
I don’t know if dancing for so many years did this to me, you know, by not using my voice, or perhaps my parents did for always making me do the ‘right’ things. (I was a pretty obedient kid..not rebellious at all).. Is doing what’s quiet and under the radar the ‘right’ way to live anyways?? It’s not the quiet ones that make a difference. It’s the ones who listen and react and those who stand up for a cause who make a difference in this world.
Today I decide to no longer care what others think of me. I am going to keep my good morals and values intact but now, from this point forward, I’m going to have something to say. I’m going to CHOOSE to engage in life. For I’m not here in this life to be quiet…it’s time to be heard.”
